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Mood:
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Listening to: Transformation-Bulgarian Women's Choir
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Reading: A Kiss in Time-Alex Flinn
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Watching: Level E
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Playing: Mass Effect, BlazBlue, The World Ends with You
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Eating: Clam chowder soup
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Drinking: Water
My one and only new years resolution is to end the my last year of high school and start college with a bang. I'm going to stand out and not give a care in the world.
Let's think about it for a bit here: All throughout elementary school, middle school, and about half of high school, I was a shy little....let's say caterpillar. I wanted to fit in somehow. But I couldn't. I had the interests that 98% of others at my school didn't have. I love my anime, I love my video games, and GOD I love my music! I was a Narutard for quite a few years. I'm always playing Final Fantasy and Super Smash Bros. Others are only interested in American Football, basketball, track & field, fashion, rap music, all of that crap.
After sophomore year, I decided No more. I went to my first anime convention, Anime Iowa, and had an amazing experience. I slowly became more sociable with people. It really helped with other people dressed up, just like me, and I was able to interact with them with absolutely no problem at all.
Years before, I've attended music camp and gained so many great friends within that one week each year.
Back in 2009, I started voice acting.
Are we seeing a pattern here?
Back in September, I finally saw an old friend after three years of not seeing her. She told me that she could tell that I have changed a lot, I have become a social butterfly.
Right at the beginning of this school year, my English teacher from sophomore year said to me that she has seen that I have become more confident in myself between the two years from when I had her as a teacher and today.
I've realized just a few days ago: The reason why I have become more confident and more sociable is because of three things: Music camp, voice acting, and anime conventions. In that order. I've finally found the two types of places that I truly belong in. I finally found a talent that I know I am good at.
I've begun to stand out more at school: I've shown that I have these interests and I'm not afraid to show that I love these things with a passion. I've cosplayed at school during dress-up days. I've begun to play and sing anime and video game songs during lessons. I joined under the radio news category for large group speech team, so I can voice act at school. I've done school projects with my voice acting.
Even though I still act like Neku from The World Ends with You, because I just simply put on my ear buds, turn on my music, and block out all of the stupidity of others, I know I am changing a lot since my younger days. I'm glad I'm changing, because I probably would never have the friends I do have today. I'm glad I have attended music camp and anime conventions, I would still be that shy little caterpillar and try to avoid conversation as much as possible if it weren't for them. I'm glad I started voice acting and joined radio news, for I would still have a lot more trouble speaking if it weren't for that.
On my last day of high school, May 22nd (Five months and eight days from now, but who's counting? =3) I will cosplay at school one last time. I will wear my Moogle cosplay, and not give a care in the world. I'll just pretend I'm at a convention, and ignore the weird looks I will most likely get. I'll be the happiest girl at school that day, Kupo!
To my friends: Thank you.
Keep doing what you do best and Happy New Year!
I've taken you as a bit of a role model leading me to break out of my shell and be myself no matter what others say and think, and I thank you for it. I'd say my New Year's Resolutions are to 1) make the sacred pilgrimage to an anime convention and 2) break out of my shell and make myself known that I am who I am! Happy New Year!